As far as I know , im not the kind of girl that would be comfortable up on stage . I get anxiety attacks . I grew up with a low self-esteem , all my life , i never thought i would be capable of achieving anything in life , well atleast that's what i was told . I grew up a loner , i'd find it hard to speak up in a group of 5 . I somehow always thought i was never good enough to be around people , or not good looking enough to be seen out with a bunch of people . I was very self conscious . I know , as bogus as that may sound its true .
As time passed , I learned to bury this negativity , and boost my confidence with words of wisdom . I admit there are time where I feel insecure , but i don't show it . Having faith in yourself goes a long way ;)
A month back , I auditioned for School Of Business Studies , prom finalist . I sang sunday morning by maroon 5 . To my surprise , i got it . We had countless hours of practice , 5pm - 9pm . 3 days a week . It was pretty crazy cause I had to fit this in my daily schedule which was already "folle" ( it means crazy in french ) . We had runway practice , dance practice and pair performance . To sum everything up , it was such an awesome experience . I should add , I was lucky enough to mingle with rest of the finalist , and let me tell you , not only they are blessed with good looks , they have an awesome personality to go with . Prom was on 28th November 2011 , and let me tell you it was the best night of my existence ( yes i quoted edward cullen ) . Well no , I did not get my wish to slow dance with a guy , maybe next year . But I had an awesome time on stage , well I have never , let me make it clearer . i have NEVER performed in front of people , the only place i use to "perform" in , was my room , and my dog was only spectator . Imagine the chills I got when I got up on stage , I literally forgot how to hold a guitar . Well I managed to catch my breath and start . Later on we danced , ran up got changed into our formal wear , and came down for the catwalk . It felt amazing . I swear i'll never forget this day .
After they crowned the prom queen and king , we were free to enjoy the night . As everybody dashed up to either changed or pack , I just sat there , and had a moment . I watched everyone , as lovers gazed into each other's eye as they slow danced , and the rest just swayed to the music . You could feel the love in the air . I chuckled as walked out of the hall . Upstairs we had a little photo shoot session among the performers and friends . Well a picture does speak a thousand words , I was lucky enough to meet a couple of really talented performers . I packed my things , took off my heels , strapped on my converse , and got to the dance floor , Believe when I say , we had some wild dancing going on ;) . As nothing last forever , the night came to an end and we departed ways , parting is such sweet sorrow
I sit here , reminiscing about that astounding night , and hopefully there'll be more to come in future
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