You lost me :)

She has won. Now it's no fun We've lost it all, the love is gone And we had magic And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself I feel like our world's been infected And somehow you left me neglected We found our life's been changed

Babe, you lost me

The Lost Thank You.

Dear You , My love , I was suppose to write you a thank you post , but then I realize , one post just wouldn't be enough ,So I have summarized my "thank you's / assurance" to fit my page .

I was once this girl who wore an over-sized green sweater and sat alone everywhere I go . Avoided by the society because of my weird taste in music . While everyone was into Britney Spears and Shakira , I was listening to Gun's and Roses , Led Zeppelin , Pink Floyd , Nirvana etc . So i have nothing in common with the kids around me . I was the target of every bully in my school , pushed around , kicked , slapped  , and I also grew up with a very low self esteem.

One Friday , in the year 2006 , you and your family joined our home fellowship . You were really shy at first , I was no difference . I never knew you would mean so much to me . Yeah sure we had our fair share of bitchy-ness , but we passed all that and now this , an inseparable bond . Honestly , you turn my life around . Because of you I can stomp around in heels and look totally fabulous in leather . Because of you , I can walk with my head held high . You gave me something no one ever did , confidence . Confidence to speak up for what I believe in . You also assured me that its okay not to fit in any cliques . You gave me hope to live , hope to love the world again . When I strayed away from my path , you never failed to drag me back in and remind me about my walk with God .

I was living in a world with darkness , a messed up life , isolated . I suffered depression for 3 years and at one point I became suicidal . That was probably the breaking point , where I actually let out everything that I have ever buried deep down . Now I am proud to say I am free from every other emotional attacks .You were right beside me through everything . You watched me bury my pain , You saw me turning numb , You felt my insanity , You saw me turn suicidal , You tolerated the bitchy side of me . &; I guess thats when you knew I started losing myself . Yet , you stood by me , advising , consoling and comforting .You never gave up on me , You somehow knew the girl you fell in love with is somewhere buried deep inside . Because of you , I am me again . All i need was someone who believed there was good behind that sadistic wreck , and you did . I am who I am , because of you , I take pride in that .

Reply to your post : The girl your fell in love with , is standing right infront of you , she might have lost herself in the past , but she's surely back now . She was never in any cliques , and never will she be in any cliques . Drama is something she hates . and She doesn't bother what other think as long its pleasing to God , she goes for it . There is one think that never changed , and that is , her love , for you :)

P/S ; I am not going to promise you forever , because forever is just a word , I promise you , I will love you more every single day

With Love , You Soul Sister ;)

Just Arrived :D

A HUGE THANK YOU TO FIREFLY :)

Where did he go ?

Yeah, the rumors are true, John Mayer deleted his twitter.
Can you believe it? I said 'Something's missing'
Then I realized it was John and all his twitter dissing.
He said bye to twitter & hastily retreated
and this little rap is to tell fans why he deleted.

No it wasn't because his friends told him too
Y'all know he does whatever the fuck he wants to do
He deleted and the reasons are clear,
he tweeted bullshit nobody wanted to hear.
He was only in it with half of his heart and for that reason he had to depart.
Yeah, he wrote what he was doing but who really cared
About his condescending attitude or lack of underwear.

Everything that he typed & everything that he said
I still couldn't get the image of Simpson as "sexual napalm" out of my head
He barely kept his privates private in that sketchy speedo he wore
I don't need to read his tweets about how he's a whore.
No more comments about how he's superior or feuds with haters
Or the constant reminders that he's a serial dater.

Yeah I gotta admit I'll miss the angry replies he & Perez just had to exchange
& tweets about how he's waiting on the world to change.
I might miss him at first but if he kept writing lame tweets about Earth's doom, I would've forced him to slow dance in a burning room.
Goodbye.


Found this on twitter .

Romance

Romance, who loves to nod and sing
With drowsy head and folded wing
Among the green leaves as they shake
Far down within some shadowy lake,
To me a painted paroquet
Hath been—most familiar bird—
Taught me my alphabet to say,
To lisp my very earliest word
While in the wild wood I did lie,
A child—with a most knowing eye.

Of late, eternal condor years
So shake the very Heaven on high
With tumult as they thunder by,
I have no time for idle cares
Through gazing on the unquiet sky;
And when an hour with calmer wings
Its down upon my spirit flings,
That little time with lyre and rhyme
To while away—forbidden things—
My heart would feel to be a crime
Unless it trembled with the strings


- Edgar Allan Poe

My own

if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine


- unknown

Made To Believe

As I laid myself on my bed , got under the covers , set my pen and Bible down . Forcing myself to sleep , was an attempt headed for failure . and I was right , I ended up staring blankly into space . 


It was sharp 2.22 am . 
When my phone went off , without thinking I immediately answered it . Didn't want to wake my grandma who was sleeping next to me .I kindly told the caller on the other end to give me a minute and I silently tipped toe'd out of my room and ran down . Got comfortable on my sofa , and i spoke softly into the receiver . A husky deep manly voice said "Hey beautiful , recognize my voice" , and now i regretted for not checking the ID , as clueless as I was , the first thing struck me was , this was a prank . So i innocently asked , who is this . and the stranger shouted "ITS ME DRAKE SILLY" . I was speechless , I think dumbfounded a more refined word to describe how I felt . For 30 seconds I babbled into the receiver , after a couple minutes , he explained how he managed to contact me and where is he , and I was updated on his latest happenings . Our little chat lasted until 4.35 am . It was really nice to hear his voice again . Although we had history , there is nothing more than genuine friendship now . He talked about the women he's attached with and I talked about mine . He brought back old-dusty-memories , that made me a little queasy . He also mentioned about De-activating his Facebook account  . 


After that very long chat . All of a sudden , a notice popped up stating "inbox full" . I rested my legs on the coffee table and brushed my hair back . 430 messages , to delete one-by-one . I was not going to delete everything because some of them are worth keeping a lifetime . Reading back all the old messages made me smile . My inbox was filled by two people . Two people who mean the world to me .So deleting was not my favorite thing to do , it never was . It took me roughly 11 minutes to clear her texts and keep the important one's .

 And then since "The Nanny" was on , I decided to continue getting comfortable on the couch . After the Nanny , "How I Met Your Mother" and "Rules Of Engagement" was on . So tv show marathon . I sat alone on the couch laughing my ass of like a total lunatic . 


So practically last night was one sleep-less night . Woke up 12pm today . Checked my phone replied . and here I am , typing . 


I'm going to leave with this , and when I get really bored or inspired , I'll come back :)


Pricilla Mark .

Pulchritudinous Being

She looked out her window , with a heavy heart , to see everything she built , now has fallen apart . Perfect was something she never believed . Letting her guard down , she gave in to everything she said she'll never do . Now she is just a pulchritudinous being . Clean , Fresh and New . & she claims that as a fallen world ? Thankful is what she should be .

I cant stop loving you :)

You will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart , But I can't stop loving you with half of my heart :)

Every word feels like a shooting star

Believe me when I say I love you , I only said it 'cause I mean it , I only mean 'cause it's true . My hearts run wild when I think of you , Im on the edge of my emotions . This feels different , you are different :) . If you ask me what's running through my mind , No its not you , its "US" . No one can take me away from you . You make the words flow from my mind , like a river . You give my heart a reason to keep beating . Simple , you make me smile :)

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place,

suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace,

suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste,

it all revolves around you.

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only life

I am someone else when I'm with you, someone more like myself.