2010 MEMORIES .

Closure .

Tick Tock Tick Tock , Time flies  faster day by day , and just when you think a new year has started poof , in a blink of an eye , its the end . today , now , these are the final moments of 2010 . Some memories may be forgotten , many hatches are buried , and sore break-up' may be permanently erased from one's memory . Laughter's and Tears . Birth and death . Joy and Stress . All compressed in one year . Today is the 365th of 2010 . And guess what tomorrow is 1.1.2011 . So why dont we start off the good way .

Happy New Year Readers

Talk About Being Free

Eight December Twenty-Ten

 A day that is definitely noted , why you may ask ?

No. 1 , Today is my officially my last day of school

No 2 , SPM is actually over .

Two years , we've put everything aside just to get this not-so-petty exam over with .& now time has finally come . Im pretty sure , there's still exams for other , but all I know is Im done !

I've put blogging aside , to concentrate on this major examination . Now that its done , I have 3 months of freedom . As you can see , I was not chosen for National Service here in Malaysia .

ttle peak at my sc

So I have 3 months on hand . So here's a little peak at my schedule and goals

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Schedule , (will be updated)

9 December - Sleepover at my place w/girls

10 December - SPM-FREEDOM dinner

11 December - Auto-show

12 December - Sony DSLR workshop

16-19 December - Singapore

20 December - High School Prom

22 December - Carolings

25 December - CHRISTMAS !

31 December - Chruch

1 January - New Year Party at my place

GOALS !

- Get that abs i've always wanted

- Start driving

- Learning how to pick a guitar , new fingerings .

- Growing my nails

So I basically have 3 months to get that done .

Other than that , let me update you what happened the last 2 months

As usual , starting growing my nails , new wardrobe , room makeover , bought a sony dslr , ipod touch 4 and xbox kinect , a new tv is fixed in my room , grandma is sick in the hospital , Thats pretty much it I guess .

So I guess the fun begins :D                                             

Slash , His New Album

Lies I Believed .

Hey Stranger

There's not one day , I've gone without thinking of you , your always there , lingering in my empty mind . You might not remember what we had , I may be just the "rebound" you needed , but hell yeah , i did love you . And I still do , just because Im smiling and mingling around , that doesnt mean Im over you . Every morning I still wake up hoping that there will be some sort of message from , but no , she's all you can think off eh ? Im seriously so surprise , that you were willing to leave one for another , of all the guys , you were the least expected one to do something like that . I would love to confront you , but I dont think talking to you or confronting you will do me any good . I cant believe I almost wrote you a song , I was half way into it until "that" happened . Things happen for a reason . &;; I still dont know the reason why you left , Sometimes I wanna know , and most of the times , i dont . Im afraid of what I might hear . But get this straight , Im nowhere near jealous . You have a sister , how would you feel if some guy did that to her , just abandon her like that ? , vice versa , but its okay , for the first Im not hurting . I dont want to make a huge issue out of this so. I wish you a happy life , and I would wish you good luck as well , but sorry , I dont believe in luck . I'll just leave you with that .

Sincerely.

______________

Dialed his number and confessed to him, 

I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing

Pink Candy And Silver Studs

Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes . Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away .Tried to break my heart .Well it's broke . Tried to hang me high.Well I'm choked.Wanted rain on me..Well I'm soaked ,Soaked to the skin.Sometimes tears say all there is to say.Sometime your first scars wont ever fade, away

What don't kill a heart Only makes it strong

This Is Real

They say a few drinks will help me to forget him

But after one too many I know that I'm never

Only they can see where this is gonna end

But they all think I'm crazy but to me it's perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down

'Cause I'm shouting your name all over the town

I'm swearing if I go there now

I can change your mind turn it all around

I know that I'm drunk but I'll say the words, 

And he'll listen this time even though they're slurred, 

Dialed his number and confessed to him, 

I'm still in love but all I heard was nothing

Am I better off dead ? They say I'm better off now , 

Then I ever was with him

You lost me :)

She has won. Now it's no fun We've lost it all, the love is gone And we had magic And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself I feel like our world's been infected And somehow you left me neglected We found our life's been changed

Babe, you lost me

The Lost Thank You.

Dear You , My love , I was suppose to write you a thank you post , but then I realize , one post just wouldn't be enough ,So I have summarized my "thank you's / assurance" to fit my page .

I was once this girl who wore an over-sized green sweater and sat alone everywhere I go . Avoided by the society because of my weird taste in music . While everyone was into Britney Spears and Shakira , I was listening to Gun's and Roses , Led Zeppelin , Pink Floyd , Nirvana etc . So i have nothing in common with the kids around me . I was the target of every bully in my school , pushed around , kicked , slapped  , and I also grew up with a very low self esteem.

One Friday , in the year 2006 , you and your family joined our home fellowship . You were really shy at first , I was no difference . I never knew you would mean so much to me . Yeah sure we had our fair share of bitchy-ness , but we passed all that and now this , an inseparable bond . Honestly , you turn my life around . Because of you I can stomp around in heels and look totally fabulous in leather . Because of you , I can walk with my head held high . You gave me something no one ever did , confidence . Confidence to speak up for what I believe in . You also assured me that its okay not to fit in any cliques . You gave me hope to live , hope to love the world again . When I strayed away from my path , you never failed to drag me back in and remind me about my walk with God .

I was living in a world with darkness , a messed up life , isolated . I suffered depression for 3 years and at one point I became suicidal . That was probably the breaking point , where I actually let out everything that I have ever buried deep down . Now I am proud to say I am free from every other emotional attacks .You were right beside me through everything . You watched me bury my pain , You saw me turning numb , You felt my insanity , You saw me turn suicidal , You tolerated the bitchy side of me . &; I guess thats when you knew I started losing myself . Yet , you stood by me , advising , consoling and comforting .You never gave up on me , You somehow knew the girl you fell in love with is somewhere buried deep inside . Because of you , I am me again . All i need was someone who believed there was good behind that sadistic wreck , and you did . I am who I am , because of you , I take pride in that .

Reply to your post : The girl your fell in love with , is standing right infront of you , she might have lost herself in the past , but she's surely back now . She was never in any cliques , and never will she be in any cliques . Drama is something she hates . and She doesn't bother what other think as long its pleasing to God , she goes for it . There is one think that never changed , and that is , her love , for you :)

P/S ; I am not going to promise you forever , because forever is just a word , I promise you , I will love you more every single day

With Love , You Soul Sister ;)

Just Arrived :D

A HUGE THANK YOU TO FIREFLY :)

Where did he go ?

Yeah, the rumors are true, John Mayer deleted his twitter.
Can you believe it? I said 'Something's missing'
Then I realized it was John and all his twitter dissing.
He said bye to twitter & hastily retreated
and this little rap is to tell fans why he deleted.

No it wasn't because his friends told him too
Y'all know he does whatever the fuck he wants to do
He deleted and the reasons are clear,
he tweeted bullshit nobody wanted to hear.
He was only in it with half of his heart and for that reason he had to depart.
Yeah, he wrote what he was doing but who really cared
About his condescending attitude or lack of underwear.

Everything that he typed & everything that he said
I still couldn't get the image of Simpson as "sexual napalm" out of my head
He barely kept his privates private in that sketchy speedo he wore
I don't need to read his tweets about how he's a whore.
No more comments about how he's superior or feuds with haters
Or the constant reminders that he's a serial dater.

Yeah I gotta admit I'll miss the angry replies he & Perez just had to exchange
& tweets about how he's waiting on the world to change.
I might miss him at first but if he kept writing lame tweets about Earth's doom, I would've forced him to slow dance in a burning room.
Goodbye.


Found this on twitter .

Romance

Romance, who loves to nod and sing
With drowsy head and folded wing
Among the green leaves as they shake
Far down within some shadowy lake,
To me a painted paroquet
Hath been—most familiar bird—
Taught me my alphabet to say,
To lisp my very earliest word
While in the wild wood I did lie,
A child—with a most knowing eye.

Of late, eternal condor years
So shake the very Heaven on high
With tumult as they thunder by,
I have no time for idle cares
Through gazing on the unquiet sky;
And when an hour with calmer wings
Its down upon my spirit flings,
That little time with lyre and rhyme
To while away—forbidden things—
My heart would feel to be a crime
Unless it trembled with the strings


- Edgar Allan Poe

My own

if each day,
each hour,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine


- unknown

Made To Believe

As I laid myself on my bed , got under the covers , set my pen and Bible down . Forcing myself to sleep , was an attempt headed for failure . and I was right , I ended up staring blankly into space . 


It was sharp 2.22 am . 
When my phone went off , without thinking I immediately answered it . Didn't want to wake my grandma who was sleeping next to me .I kindly told the caller on the other end to give me a minute and I silently tipped toe'd out of my room and ran down . Got comfortable on my sofa , and i spoke softly into the receiver . A husky deep manly voice said "Hey beautiful , recognize my voice" , and now i regretted for not checking the ID , as clueless as I was , the first thing struck me was , this was a prank . So i innocently asked , who is this . and the stranger shouted "ITS ME DRAKE SILLY" . I was speechless , I think dumbfounded a more refined word to describe how I felt . For 30 seconds I babbled into the receiver , after a couple minutes , he explained how he managed to contact me and where is he , and I was updated on his latest happenings . Our little chat lasted until 4.35 am . It was really nice to hear his voice again . Although we had history , there is nothing more than genuine friendship now . He talked about the women he's attached with and I talked about mine . He brought back old-dusty-memories , that made me a little queasy . He also mentioned about De-activating his Facebook account  . 


After that very long chat . All of a sudden , a notice popped up stating "inbox full" . I rested my legs on the coffee table and brushed my hair back . 430 messages , to delete one-by-one . I was not going to delete everything because some of them are worth keeping a lifetime . Reading back all the old messages made me smile . My inbox was filled by two people . Two people who mean the world to me .So deleting was not my favorite thing to do , it never was . It took me roughly 11 minutes to clear her texts and keep the important one's .

 And then since "The Nanny" was on , I decided to continue getting comfortable on the couch . After the Nanny , "How I Met Your Mother" and "Rules Of Engagement" was on . So tv show marathon . I sat alone on the couch laughing my ass of like a total lunatic . 


So practically last night was one sleep-less night . Woke up 12pm today . Checked my phone replied . and here I am , typing . 


I'm going to leave with this , and when I get really bored or inspired , I'll come back :)


Pricilla Mark .

Pulchritudinous Being

She looked out her window , with a heavy heart , to see everything she built , now has fallen apart . Perfect was something she never believed . Letting her guard down , she gave in to everything she said she'll never do . Now she is just a pulchritudinous being . Clean , Fresh and New . & she claims that as a fallen world ? Thankful is what she should be .

I cant stop loving you :)

You will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart , But I can't stop loving you with half of my heart :)

Every word feels like a shooting star

Believe me when I say I love you , I only said it 'cause I mean it , I only mean 'cause it's true . My hearts run wild when I think of you , Im on the edge of my emotions . This feels different , you are different :) . If you ask me what's running through my mind , No its not you , its "US" . No one can take me away from you . You make the words flow from my mind , like a river . You give my heart a reason to keep beating . Simple , you make me smile :)

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place,

suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace,

suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste,

it all revolves around you.

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only life

I am someone else when I'm with you, someone more like myself.

The heart always wants what it cant have

I miss this , I miss you

I may be one of your friends , but you mean the world to me .

Till death do us part , hmm .

Rock Star

The wannabe who got to be ;

Rock Star tells the story of Chris Cole and a rock band called Steel Dragon. Cole is a photocopier technician by day, and the lead singer of a Steel Dragon tribute band called "Blood Pollution" by night.

Internal struggles between the Steel Dragon band members culminate with the firing of the lead singer, Bobby Beers (Jason Flemyng) and the starting of recruitment sessions to find a new vocalist. Chris experiences his own internal strife with his bandmates, particularly guitarist Rob Malcolm (Timothy Olyphant) and is fired from Blood Pollution for his inability to make changes in his musical style, nor create his own.

One day, Chris receives an unexpected call from Steel Dragon's founder and rhythm guitarist, Kurt Cuddy (Dominic West), and is offered an audition for the band (thanks to two of Blood Pollution's groupies who had a tape of one of their concerts). He ecstatically agrees and after an outstanding performance of "We All Die Young", he joins the band as their new singer, adopting the stage name "Izzy."

Following a successful debut concert with Steel Dragon, Izzy has to come to grips with the pressures of his new-found fame and success. The band embarks on a lengthy tour and Izzy experiences the excesses of the lifestyle, with the group's band manager Mats (Timothy Spall) serving as a sympathetic mentor to Izzy.

His new lifestyle impacts his life both for better and worse, particularly with his relationship with his supportive girlfriend, Emily (Jennifer Aniston), when she decides not to continue with him throughout the remainder of the tour as a rock star girlfriend, though Emily and Izzy agree to get back together when the tour reaches Seattle. But when Emily meets Izzy again, he is too under the influence to remember that they were going to see each other, heartbroken with his inconsiderate behavior and the fact that he is sleeping with so many groupies, Emily leaves him.

After the end of the tour, Izzy reports to the next series of Steel Dragon recording sessions with song concepts for the band's next album. But the rest of the band rejects Izzy's ideas immediately, on the grounds that reflect Izzy's old friend Rob's very reasons for Izzy being kicked out of his old band for being unable to change just so to meet the expectations of the fans; and Izzy realizes he was only recruited for his vocal abilities, making him feel angry and used. After a heartfelt conversation with Mats about how he feared he had no control over the direction life has taken him, Izzy begins to reconsider his rock star lifestyle.

On the next tour, in a scene directly paralleling one near the beginning of the film with their roles reversed, Izzy hears a fan (portrayed by Myles Kennedy) singing along with him toward the end of a live concert. Impressed, Izzy pulls the fan, who introduces himself as "Mike", onstage and hands him the microphone to finish the concert. Backstage, Izzy realizes that what he wanted for so long wasn't what he thought, and he goes to the back room and says goodbye to Mats, departing from the band while doing so.

Izzy (now Chris Cole again) makes his way to Seattle (while Steel Dragon failing to evolve has their fame fizzle out) and starts a new coffee-house rock band with Rob (an allusion to the end of 1980s hair metal and the beginnings of the 1990s grunge rock movement). He finds Emily working in the coffee shop she and her roommate purchased a few months earlier, but is initially too ashamed to meet her. While walking one evening, Emily sees a flier for his band posted on the wall and takes it down. In the final scene, Chris is singing with his band in a bar and Emily walks in. Chris leaves the stage and meets her. They reconcile, ending the film with a kiss and the final note of Chris' first original song "Colorful" (which is actually a song byThe Verve Pipe).

Critic ; 

I say , best movie so far , It might be old , but it is definitely a movie to watch .

P/S Not a movie to watch if your a bieber fan . ;)