29 June 2010

Many of you are aware that I’m not a fan of love songs, romantic films, romantic novels, etc.  I turn down anything that has to do with romance. Have any of you ever wondered why? Wonder no more, something inspired me to do this, I’m not revealing the source, but I am going to tell you why …

Due to my limitation to use the internet, I’ve decided to type it out on Microsoft word before actually publishing this. I really hope this answers you questions

Let me start off by doing a little confession here. I lied, I do read romantic novels, listen to love song and watch romantic films. Few of my current favorites are “When in Rome” “Valentine’s Day” and “Leap Year” and not to mention the movie that made me ball my eyes out, “Seven Pounds”. That movie got the best out of me.

Honestly, I do believe in LOVE, there I said it .I believe one day, he’ll come. He might not appeal to others but He’d be the perfect for me. He’d be someone I can totally be myself with. He’d be someone I hate and love at the same time. Someone who I can stare at all day and not get bored off. I may not know who is now but I do know he’s out there.

Many of you also know , I’m not a fan of “kids” , I lied , I may not like them at first , but when I get to know them , I start to treat them as if their my own . Okay, I would not say I lied completely, I still do hate the annoying ones :P.

I do want to get married someday, I want to see the expression on “his” face as I walk down that aisle, I do want to cry and laugh at the same time (you only do that on your wedding day), hell yeah, I do want to have kids, I do want to go through all the screaming and shouting, after all that, I can promise him it’ll be alright, and it will be. I want to grow old with someone.

Back to topic, so why do I hide this things? I know life is never like the movies. I’m afraid to keep my hopes up. I’m a little insecure at times. I’m afraid to watching these movies cause, what if’, I don’t get my fairytale ending?  After all, movies and life, two different things. Yesterday when I was watching When in Rome, something strike'd me, no not lightning, a phrase from the movie. Something Beth (Kristen) said got me. 

Every time I ever put myself out there I’ve gotten hurt, every time. It’s like I meet a guy and I think it’s great and everyone else would just be thinking how much greater its gonna get, while I’m constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop – Beth (when in Rome)

That’s what was going through my mind. That’s what I think about when I get in a relationship. When it’s all going to end? , bummer isn’t it

And you still expect me to believe that “love” is going to magically appear someday for me? Fairytales only work on pretty and rich ones. So where does this leave me? I honestly don’t know, and I don’t plan on soul searching either. My dad always says this, “good things come for people who wait”. I believe so.

Patients Is a Virtue

P/S, Here I Go, Scream My Lungs Out To Try To Get To You, For You’re My Only One.