The Lost Thank You.

Dear You , My love , I was suppose to write you a thank you post , but then I realize , one post just wouldn't be enough ,So I have summarized my "thank you's / assurance" to fit my page .

I was once this girl who wore an over-sized green sweater and sat alone everywhere I go . Avoided by the society because of my weird taste in music . While everyone was into Britney Spears and Shakira , I was listening to Gun's and Roses , Led Zeppelin , Pink Floyd , Nirvana etc . So i have nothing in common with the kids around me . I was the target of every bully in my school , pushed around , kicked , slapped  , and I also grew up with a very low self esteem.

One Friday , in the year 2006 , you and your family joined our home fellowship . You were really shy at first , I was no difference . I never knew you would mean so much to me . Yeah sure we had our fair share of bitchy-ness , but we passed all that and now this , an inseparable bond . Honestly , you turn my life around . Because of you I can stomp around in heels and look totally fabulous in leather . Because of you , I can walk with my head held high . You gave me something no one ever did , confidence . Confidence to speak up for what I believe in . You also assured me that its okay not to fit in any cliques . You gave me hope to live , hope to love the world again . When I strayed away from my path , you never failed to drag me back in and remind me about my walk with God .

I was living in a world with darkness , a messed up life , isolated . I suffered depression for 3 years and at one point I became suicidal . That was probably the breaking point , where I actually let out everything that I have ever buried deep down . Now I am proud to say I am free from every other emotional attacks .You were right beside me through everything . You watched me bury my pain , You saw me turning numb , You felt my insanity , You saw me turn suicidal , You tolerated the bitchy side of me . &; I guess thats when you knew I started losing myself . Yet , you stood by me , advising , consoling and comforting .You never gave up on me , You somehow knew the girl you fell in love with is somewhere buried deep inside . Because of you , I am me again . All i need was someone who believed there was good behind that sadistic wreck , and you did . I am who I am , because of you , I take pride in that .

Reply to your post : The girl your fell in love with , is standing right infront of you , she might have lost herself in the past , but she's surely back now . She was never in any cliques , and never will she be in any cliques . Drama is something she hates . and She doesn't bother what other think as long its pleasing to God , she goes for it . There is one think that never changed , and that is , her love , for you :)

P/S ; I am not going to promise you forever , because forever is just a word , I promise you , I will love you more every single day

With Love , You Soul Sister ;)