Faith

Maybe , Maybe Not ? I thought to myself .
Trying so hard to tell him this is the end .
I know this aint gonna benefit me , but its gonna help him
So I did it .

Regrets , filled my weary heart . Wondering what I did was right or wrong .

Lets put it this way ,

Its good for him , bad for me .

Good for him ? Why ?
I believe , I rushed . I blame myself
I was selfish , I did'nt actually bother to know how he felt .
It was all about how I felt ,
Do you realise there is no  "I" in Love

Bad for me ?
It is . I just let go the one I love the most.
To be honest as someone said ,I begun to love him more than I love myself  .
I've grown to love him unconditionally .In a short period of time
It wasnt because of his looks , yes he was irrefutably good looking , in my words "sexy"
(and by the way , I do not use the term "sexy" just for anyone)
There was something about him that enthralled me .
I just fell deeper , and deeper each day 

My feeling for him is abysmal .

Let me give you a picture on how i feel now , so you have a rough idea .

Try stabbing yourself with a hook . Later try pulling it out ?

What Happens ? Whats the observation ?

Trying to pull it out will cause 100 times more pain than the stabbing

Its like i've stabbed it in , and now Im trying to pull it out .
Is that even possible ?

It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone, when you're heart still does

The answer is NO.

Many people told me , Don't waste your time loving someone who isn't willing to love you
But I stay strong


Many people ask , why am I doing the same mistake , AGAIN ?
The answer to that is , I might be doing the same mistake again , but its not to the same person .
I believe everyone is different .

Some do ask me , Your not with him , Why do you tell other guys your taken ? You should keep your options open !
My answer is : Yeah there are many fishes in the ocean , but I dont want all . I just want a particular one .
He practically cancelled every other guy around . If he ain't there, ain't nobody else to impress :)

Baby you doin' something right

You just canceled every other man here

Video Phone - Beyonce

I have never ,,, let me repeat that ,I HAVE NEVER ! thrown my heart out to someone , but this time I did
How do you expect me to move on ? Tell me !

Maybe if you can't get somebody out of your head, they're supposed to be there

Im gonna be a nincompoop , and wait . I'll silently wait for him .
Like a bride waiting for her groom
I believe one day , maybe one day , that spark will be enkindle . and when that happens I will be there .
I'm not letting go even if lightning strikes me (:

You know my world revolves around you

I'm who i am because i found you

P/S If I had to choose between breathing and loving you I would use my last breath to tell you I love you

I hope this answered some of your questions (:

xo's

Pricilla Vashte