Confessions Of A Broken Hearted

Darling , I know you dont read blogs I just wanna tell you that I

errrrrr

I love you

I really do

I might have told you this a 100 times

Bt im gonna keep saying it

Cause there are no lies in this words

I know you got bored of me

Im no more your shinny toy

You have a new one

Congrats to her

As i sit here 

and wipe away the

tears on my keyboard

I still Love you

I really do

Knowing that you dont belong to me anymore

Or as you said

I never did own you

But darling

You held my heart 

on a thread

& dropped it from the

86th floor

I told you to keep it safe

As i said it lost its shine

You had a new toy

Those days I didnt call you

Those nites i didnt wish you good night

You took it as a goodbye

But ,

What i didnt tell you is that

I worked my ass off

to try to contact you

I tried so many things

to un-ground myself

You know why

Because I love You 

You Idiot 

You couldnt see that

When I cried infront of you

sighs*

No girl like crying infront the guy they love

I didnt want to 

It just happened

Im sorry for acting like a baby

Blame my broken heart

It was crushed

Cried on the out

All because I loved You

I was blinded by you

I ignored them

I turned my back on my friends

Just because 

i Loved you

I turned into a monster

when you left me

disorientated

Broken

Dis functional

After all that you put me through 

I still can say

I loved you

I did everything with love

Darling

I'm not a player

I dont know how to break a heart

All I know is give my all 

&.I will keep doing that

I will not hurt him

just so you know

I still do miss yea 

bt im fine

Im strong

P/S .. How much can I hide this feeling